Stories

I've decided that I really miss writing.  As I've been sitting here, procrastinating, I went through my portfolios and looked at some of my old work.  I may decide to post some of the pieces here, but for the most part, I'm thinking I would like to start some new pieces.  Finding the time to sit and write short stories may be hard right now, but I think it'll be what I need to destress.  As much as I would like to start right now, I really need to get back to my "studying" for my midterm I'm not quite ready for....oy!  Here goes nothing...

Travelling

Normally I'm a fan of travelling.  Today on the other hand, not so much.  I need to learn to follow my gut.  Lesson learned.  (or so I say until the next time)

The purpose of this trip was to visit family in Dallas as well as to visit the SMU campus.  I loved the campus when I came two years ago, and still love it.  It's just the campus, not a college town, so quite different from where I've grown up and where I am now.  The question then becomes, do I want this change?  Well I guess that question would come after the most obvious, will I even get in?  There's so many quesitons right now going through my mind.  I know everyone says I'll be fine with whatever I do, but I'm scared.  I'm scared and I'm not so sure. 

I know anything I do will be hard, and that I won't be happy all the time, but I want to do something that I'll look forward to at least sometimes.  So, what to do?  I love to write and occasionally be around people (haha!), will I make a good lawyer?  I suppose I could.  Only time will tell I guess. 

So far it seems like this blog has been solely a place for me to rant.  I know there won't be a lot of people reading this, so I guess that's why I feel I can.  I have great people who will listen, but I don't want to sound too repetitive.  Unfortunately that repetition is what is going through my head right now.  This weekend will be for applications but fun too.  I need some time to relax, unwind and I dunno, be a college student?  Whatever that means!  :)

More later

Lies...

“The average person tells 4 lies a day, and 1460 a year. A total of 88,000 by the age of 6. And the most common lie is I’m fine.”

I found this quote today, and thought it was really quite interesting.   There have been a number of people telling lies around me lately, and I can't help but wonder...if the above quote is true, do they even realize they are lying anymore?  One would think that blatant lies are conscious, but if the lier believes they are correct they may not even think they are doing anything wrong. 

I think this goes to show that there is something wrong with society in the fact that lies are becoming so common.  I understand the lie, "I'm fine," and I'll be the first to admit this is a statement I have used more times than I can count when I am in fact, not fine.   This is different though.  This is more of an unwillingness to share something for the time being.  I'll often admit later that this was incorrect, but at the same time, there are very few people I care to share such things with.  This type of lie doesn't affect anyone but the lier.  It isn't done maliciously, usually just to protect an emotion, or keep an emotion from being shown. 

I just don't understand why people feel the need to hurt others by lying.  Why?  What do you gain from this?  I guess this is my way of at least getting out that I can't stand the bullshit anymore. 

Enough ranting...more to come later

Sitting here watching airplanes...

Airplanes...or professors...I have the song stuck in my head, most likely because I'm so ready to be on a plane in the next couple of days.  I haven't even been in school for that long this year, and yet, I absolutely cannot wait to be done.  Senioritis has struck.  Hard core. 

Next year is the big question though.  To stay or not to stay?  I know it all depends on where  I get into school, but at the same time, even if I get in to schools both here and elsewhere, I have no idea where I want to be.  Before, the decision was easy.  I had to get out of Michigan, out of this town.  But now, it doesn't seem so simple and straightforward.  Decisions, decisions.  I suppose the first step here is finishing applications...

More later...