It's been a long time since i've been on here...nothing much has changed. It's december and slowly creeping towards christmas. I just wish it would hurry up and get here. I'm ready to be home...for break and for good.
When I moved down here, people told me to give it time. Minimum a year. I don't think that's for everyone though. Yes, if you are moving to work or moving with your husband or family, sure, give it a year, but otherwise, I don't think that holds true. I left home for all the wrong reasons. I know this, and I'm not happy with myself for choosing so abruptly. But, as with everything, I believe that I had to learn and to appreciate what I had/have at home. If it's taught me anything, I've learned that there is no where I'd rather be. Home might drive you crazy sometimes, ok, probably a lot of the time, but it's home nonetheless. It's not just Ann Arbor, it's the family, friends, just being around the people you care about. Yes, I have some of that here, but it's not the same. I know this is a sappy post, but what can I say, it's where I am right now. I'm looking forward to the cruise coming so that I can get some sun, and go home!
I almost went skating today. I haven't skated, I mean really skated, since before my last surgery. I guess I'm just worried about how it's going to go. I miss it so much, more than I ever figured I would. I always knew growing up that skating was my outlet. It was what I used whenever I was hurt, or upset, or needed time to think. It gave me something to do, somewhere to turn when I needed to vent. I think it might be time for that again, provided my feet can handle it these days. I thought about it last night, about the possibility of starting to train again. I think I'd like that. I think it would be nice to have a reason to get up in the morning, who knows, maybe even go for that adult national title in 2013. I'm thinking about it. Skating has always been a part of me, a part of my soul, and I am realizing now that a piece of me is missing with out it. I don't miss the drama, that's for sure, but I miss the speed, the jumping and the feeling that I can do anything, be anyone out there. Hopefully I'll make it out there tomorrow. I'll keep you posted.
More later, (hopefully soon) KG
