So...I'm doing what I do best, procrastination! I really should be writing a paper on the criminal justice system but blogging was just too tempting.
Today has been long and hard...I have to say I'm so thankful for my friends who keep me going through everything. Just when I think I have no more fight left in me at all, I get another pep talk, text/phone call, and those are just what help keep me pushing through. It feels like everything is just going to keep falling apart, I mean, this has been the trend so far right? I just have to keep believing things will get better.
On the plus side, I think I'm getting my new car on wednesday, so between that and Vegas, at least I have a couple of things to look forward to.
Ok so enough procrastination for now...gotta write that paper so I can sleep!
KG
Monday, March 28, 2011
Sunday, March 27, 2011
It's been awhile (again)
It's been almost 2 months since my last post. To say a lot has happened is an understatement...I've learned a lot, mostly that it's hard to know who to trust and that the best thing you can do in a bad situation is to take things one day at a time, in fact that's all you can do.
Proverbs 24:14
Know also that wisdom is sweet to your soul; if you find it, there is a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.
Philippians 4:13 NIV
I can do everything through him who gives me strength
I recently lost a great friend and family member, and in all that I've found out about her since her death makes me want to be a better person and a better christian. She was so selfless and thought more about helping others, both elderly and sick, than she did about herself. For that I respect and admire her more than I can express. And for that, and with all I have experienced in this last month especially make me want to be more like her in that way. It's been awhile since I've gone to church or read the bible or have really turned to God, and I want that to change. By losing someone I love, the best thing I can think to help me get through this is to think of the better life she has gone to. In order for that to be true, I believe that God has helped her find her way. I think if I can be half the person she was, I'll be able to get through these tough times and move on to greater things in the future. I'll always love and miss you Alenah!
'Til next time
Proverbs 24:14
Know also that wisdom is sweet to your soul; if you find it, there is a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.
Philippians 4:13 NIV
I can do everything through him who gives me strength
I recently lost a great friend and family member, and in all that I've found out about her since her death makes me want to be a better person and a better christian. She was so selfless and thought more about helping others, both elderly and sick, than she did about herself. For that I respect and admire her more than I can express. And for that, and with all I have experienced in this last month especially make me want to be more like her in that way. It's been awhile since I've gone to church or read the bible or have really turned to God, and I want that to change. By losing someone I love, the best thing I can think to help me get through this is to think of the better life she has gone to. In order for that to be true, I believe that God has helped her find her way. I think if I can be half the person she was, I'll be able to get through these tough times and move on to greater things in the future. I'll always love and miss you Alenah!
'Til next time
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Forgot about this...
Thanks to a friend I remembered this morning I had this blog. Things have been so busy lately that I've kind of forgotten about it. Today was the so called "snowmaggedon" 2011. It wasn't quite as bad in this area as was anticipated, however, I did get stuck 3 times...and that wasn't even driving my little car. I guess that's what this time of year is all about. It'd be nice if this time next year I'm somewhere warmer where the worst I have to worry about is 1-3 inches. If only!
So the exciting thing of the moment...ordering my iphone tomorrow morning (really super early)!! I can't wait...I feel like a kid in a candy shop. Kinda sad that I'm this pumped about a phone, oh well. I've been waiting to get one for about 5 years now, so as far as my patience goes, that pretty much puts me at my max.
I hope I'll do a better job about remembering to update this and at least keep my writing fresh!
More later (hopefully)!
So the exciting thing of the moment...ordering my iphone tomorrow morning (really super early)!! I can't wait...I feel like a kid in a candy shop. Kinda sad that I'm this pumped about a phone, oh well. I've been waiting to get one for about 5 years now, so as far as my patience goes, that pretty much puts me at my max.
I hope I'll do a better job about remembering to update this and at least keep my writing fresh!
More later (hopefully)!
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Stories
I've decided that I really miss writing. As I've been sitting here, procrastinating, I went through my portfolios and looked at some of my old work. I may decide to post some of the pieces here, but for the most part, I'm thinking I would like to start some new pieces. Finding the time to sit and write short stories may be hard right now, but I think it'll be what I need to destress. As much as I would like to start right now, I really need to get back to my "studying" for my midterm I'm not quite ready for....oy! Here goes nothing...
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Travelling
Normally I'm a fan of travelling. Today on the other hand, not so much. I need to learn to follow my gut. Lesson learned. (or so I say until the next time)
The purpose of this trip was to visit family in Dallas as well as to visit the SMU campus. I loved the campus when I came two years ago, and still love it. It's just the campus, not a college town, so quite different from where I've grown up and where I am now. The question then becomes, do I want this change? Well I guess that question would come after the most obvious, will I even get in? There's so many quesitons right now going through my mind. I know everyone says I'll be fine with whatever I do, but I'm scared. I'm scared and I'm not so sure.
I know anything I do will be hard, and that I won't be happy all the time, but I want to do something that I'll look forward to at least sometimes. So, what to do? I love to write and occasionally be around people (haha!), will I make a good lawyer? I suppose I could. Only time will tell I guess.
So far it seems like this blog has been solely a place for me to rant. I know there won't be a lot of people reading this, so I guess that's why I feel I can. I have great people who will listen, but I don't want to sound too repetitive. Unfortunately that repetition is what is going through my head right now. This weekend will be for applications but fun too. I need some time to relax, unwind and I dunno, be a college student? Whatever that means! :)
More later
The purpose of this trip was to visit family in Dallas as well as to visit the SMU campus. I loved the campus when I came two years ago, and still love it. It's just the campus, not a college town, so quite different from where I've grown up and where I am now. The question then becomes, do I want this change? Well I guess that question would come after the most obvious, will I even get in? There's so many quesitons right now going through my mind. I know everyone says I'll be fine with whatever I do, but I'm scared. I'm scared and I'm not so sure.
I know anything I do will be hard, and that I won't be happy all the time, but I want to do something that I'll look forward to at least sometimes. So, what to do? I love to write and occasionally be around people (haha!), will I make a good lawyer? I suppose I could. Only time will tell I guess.
So far it seems like this blog has been solely a place for me to rant. I know there won't be a lot of people reading this, so I guess that's why I feel I can. I have great people who will listen, but I don't want to sound too repetitive. Unfortunately that repetition is what is going through my head right now. This weekend will be for applications but fun too. I need some time to relax, unwind and I dunno, be a college student? Whatever that means! :)
More later
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Lies...
“The average person tells 4 lies a day, and 1460 a year. A total of 88,000 by the age of 6. And the most common lie is I’m fine.”
I found this quote today, and thought it was really quite interesting. There have been a number of people telling lies around me lately, and I can't help but wonder...if the above quote is true, do they even realize they are lying anymore? One would think that blatant lies are conscious, but if the lier believes they are correct they may not even think they are doing anything wrong.
I think this goes to show that there is something wrong with society in the fact that lies are becoming so common. I understand the lie, "I'm fine," and I'll be the first to admit this is a statement I have used more times than I can count when I am in fact, not fine. This is different though. This is more of an unwillingness to share something for the time being. I'll often admit later that this was incorrect, but at the same time, there are very few people I care to share such things with. This type of lie doesn't affect anyone but the lier. It isn't done maliciously, usually just to protect an emotion, or keep an emotion from being shown.
I just don't understand why people feel the need to hurt others by lying. Why? What do you gain from this? I guess this is my way of at least getting out that I can't stand the bullshit anymore.
Enough ranting...more to come later
I found this quote today, and thought it was really quite interesting. There have been a number of people telling lies around me lately, and I can't help but wonder...if the above quote is true, do they even realize they are lying anymore? One would think that blatant lies are conscious, but if the lier believes they are correct they may not even think they are doing anything wrong.
I think this goes to show that there is something wrong with society in the fact that lies are becoming so common. I understand the lie, "I'm fine," and I'll be the first to admit this is a statement I have used more times than I can count when I am in fact, not fine. This is different though. This is more of an unwillingness to share something for the time being. I'll often admit later that this was incorrect, but at the same time, there are very few people I care to share such things with. This type of lie doesn't affect anyone but the lier. It isn't done maliciously, usually just to protect an emotion, or keep an emotion from being shown.
I just don't understand why people feel the need to hurt others by lying. Why? What do you gain from this? I guess this is my way of at least getting out that I can't stand the bullshit anymore.
Enough ranting...more to come later
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Sitting here watching airplanes...
Airplanes...or professors...I have the song stuck in my head, most likely because I'm so ready to be on a plane in the next couple of days. I haven't even been in school for that long this year, and yet, I absolutely cannot wait to be done. Senioritis has struck. Hard core.
Next year is the big question though. To stay or not to stay? I know it all depends on where I get into school, but at the same time, even if I get in to schools both here and elsewhere, I have no idea where I want to be. Before, the decision was easy. I had to get out of Michigan, out of this town. But now, it doesn't seem so simple and straightforward. Decisions, decisions. I suppose the first step here is finishing applications...
More later...
Next year is the big question though. To stay or not to stay? I know it all depends on where I get into school, but at the same time, even if I get in to schools both here and elsewhere, I have no idea where I want to be. Before, the decision was easy. I had to get out of Michigan, out of this town. But now, it doesn't seem so simple and straightforward. Decisions, decisions. I suppose the first step here is finishing applications...
More later...
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